inside the heart

My soul possession

hanging from the bars
your hands above your head
that is where i left you
tied up to your bed
the cameres eye winked with a flash
and captured that still frame
the one that seeks to glorify
the beauty of your pain
a trickle of the vino
runs across the seering welts
i marvel at the decoration
designed with chains and belts

if only pictures really spoke
then all could hear your scream
like an angel falling from the sky
but most can only dream to hear
the beauty of your cry

the temptation just to toutch you
is almost more than i can take
to run my hands across the skin
which my belt had sought to break
to taste your lips and make you mine

to steal your breath and fill you with my emptiness divine

Forgive me this sin

forgive me this sin

the lusting glance

pardon me please

for taking a chance

each night i cry

and my weakened heart fails

if only i´d known

evil always prevails

it takes two to tango

but this is no dance

it cannot be love

and it isn´t romance

i know what it was

and what that makes me

but with ignorant bliss

i pretend that im free

absolved of my guilt

my crimes and my shame

but deep inside knowing

that i hold the blame

so i hold my head high

and ignore what they say

though inside i know

it will come out some day

i feel so unsure

of what to do now

i cant make things right

i just don´t know how

so where do i go

to protect from this harm

because sooner or later

i´ll be back in your arms.

your love left a bruise

there are days when the wounds seem to open again
days when i cant escape my pain
nights when my tears run so cold and so blue
nights when im left here and im still missing you
there were times when i loved you
and i felt so abused
but even as time has passed
your love has left a bruise

it´s a mark that never goes away
and it hurts me to the bone
if only it would heal
with a simple word on the phone
but you dont call me anmore
your love has died away
but still the bruises refuse to heal
and stull are there today

so here i am
still lost and still used
and forever it would seem
your love has left it´s bruise.

I cannot hold a sunset

Before the sun had set
And while the sky weeps with gold
There is a memory so dear
In the scene in do behold
A face long lost and gone for good
But one I can’t forget
He was the love I longed so for
And I, the love he never met
A gentle passing breeze sweeps the ground
My skin
My hair
And for one solitary moment
It almost feels as if he’s there
There is a song that soothes me
In the rustling of the leaves
And for just one still moment
My heart forgets all that it grieves
But I cannot hold the sunset
Nor can I catch its amber glow
But never shall my heart forget
The love it didn’t know.

Hallowed

such a storm
such a haze
and within that blowing gale i feel alive
i stand here
still amazed
and stretching forth my arms up to the sky
hallowed hallowed
hallowed is the day
and the rain pours out to me it´s sorrows pain
i can feel the rivers winding
and it babble
and it´s hush
as a pulse inside my own
within my viens
sootheing is the sigh
of the wind that sweeps and blows
melancholy is it´s silent hand
as sweeping up the leaves
it´s gentle fingers brush
through all the leaves and all across the land
hallowed hallowed
hallowed is the day
and hallowed is the earth on which i stand
upon a grassy knowle
like a beacon to the fold
there stands a silent testamony still
it´s iron nails all rusted
and it´s wood all weather torn
here lies the place where purest blood was spilled
hallowed hallowed
hallowed is the day
and hallowed was the one who gave his life
he who bore the burden
the torment and the pain
for ten score and a thousand years of strife
for each sinner in the crowd
for each sinner yet to come
and for every sin he cried to god aloud
forgive them my father they know not what they do
and these are the words that fill my heart
for gods son gave his life
to give me life anew
though not just me
he gave it for you too.

you broke my dreams and took my heart

you carry it around like a medal on your chest,
the thing that you have taken from deep within my breast,
you parade it right in front of me,
and ignore the tears i fight,
i wish that i could stop them,
but i cant,
try as i might,
can nothing end this feeling,
like im falling through the sky,
cant i just pretend that im okay,
and tell you to walk on by,
why do you play these games,
that reek havock with my mind,
is there nothing you can say,
that is comforting or kind,
can you not see the destruction,
that lays within your wake,
can you not see the heart you stole,
may be the one you break,
please dont take my dreams from me,
they´re all that i have left,
of a life that i once thought i´d have,
of which im now bereft,
though these words have little meaning,
i speak them from the heart,
the one that you have stolen,
as i told you from the start,
be carefull of your pride,
and your arrogance indeed,
for someday i might be,
the one want so not to need.