inside the heart

My soul possession

hanging from the bars
your hands above your head
that is where i left you
tied up to your bed
the cameres eye winked with a flash
and captured that still frame
the one that seeks to glorify
the beauty of your pain
a trickle of the vino
runs across the seering welts
i marvel at the decoration
designed with chains and belts

if only pictures really spoke
then all could hear your scream
like an angel falling from the sky
but most can only dream to hear
the beauty of your cry

the temptation just to toutch you
is almost more than i can take
to run my hands across the skin
which my belt had sought to break
to taste your lips and make you mine

to steal your breath and fill you with my emptiness divine

Forgive me this sin

forgive me this sin

the lusting glance

pardon me please

for taking a chance

each night i cry

and my weakened heart fails

if only i´d known

evil always prevails

it takes two to tango

but this is no dance

it cannot be love

and it isn´t romance

i know what it was

and what that makes me

but with ignorant bliss

i pretend that im free

absolved of my guilt

my crimes and my shame

but deep inside knowing

that i hold the blame

so i hold my head high

and ignore what they say

though inside i know

it will come out some day

i feel so unsure

of what to do now

i cant make things right

i just don´t know how

so where do i go

to protect from this harm

because sooner or later

i´ll be back in your arms.

your love left a bruise

there are days when the wounds seem to open again
days when i cant escape my pain
nights when my tears run so cold and so blue
nights when im left here and im still missing you
there were times when i loved you
and i felt so abused
but even as time has passed
your love has left a bruise

it´s a mark that never goes away
and it hurts me to the bone
if only it would heal
with a simple word on the phone
but you dont call me anmore
your love has died away
but still the bruises refuse to heal
and stull are there today

so here i am
still lost and still used
and forever it would seem
your love has left it´s bruise.

I cannot hold a sunset

Before the sun had set
And while the sky weeps with gold
There is a memory so dear
In the scene in do behold
A face long lost and gone for good
But one I can’t forget
He was the love I longed so for
And I, the love he never met
A gentle passing breeze sweeps the ground
My skin
My hair
And for one solitary moment
It almost feels as if he’s there
There is a song that soothes me
In the rustling of the leaves
And for just one still moment
My heart forgets all that it grieves
But I cannot hold the sunset
Nor can I catch its amber glow
But never shall my heart forget
The love it didn’t know.

Hallowed

such a storm
such a haze
and within that blowing gale i feel alive
i stand here
still amazed
and stretching forth my arms up to the sky
hallowed hallowed
hallowed is the day
and the rain pours out to me it´s sorrows pain
i can feel the rivers winding
and it babble
and it´s hush
as a pulse inside my own
within my viens
sootheing is the sigh
of the wind that sweeps and blows
melancholy is it´s silent hand
as sweeping up the leaves
it´s gentle fingers brush
through all the leaves and all across the land
hallowed hallowed
hallowed is the day
and hallowed is the earth on which i stand
upon a grassy knowle
like a beacon to the fold
there stands a silent testamony still
it´s iron nails all rusted
and it´s wood all weather torn
here lies the place where purest blood was spilled
hallowed hallowed
hallowed is the day
and hallowed was the one who gave his life
he who bore the burden
the torment and the pain
for ten score and a thousand years of strife
for each sinner in the crowd
for each sinner yet to come
and for every sin he cried to god aloud
forgive them my father they know not what they do
and these are the words that fill my heart
for gods son gave his life
to give me life anew
though not just me
he gave it for you too.

you broke my dreams and took my heart

you carry it around like a medal on your chest,
the thing that you have taken from deep within my breast,
you parade it right in front of me,
and ignore the tears i fight,
i wish that i could stop them,
but i cant,
try as i might,
can nothing end this feeling,
like im falling through the sky,
cant i just pretend that im okay,
and tell you to walk on by,
why do you play these games,
that reek havock with my mind,
is there nothing you can say,
that is comforting or kind,
can you not see the destruction,
that lays within your wake,
can you not see the heart you stole,
may be the one you break,
please dont take my dreams from me,
they´re all that i have left,
of a life that i once thought i´d have,
of which im now bereft,
though these words have little meaning,
i speak them from the heart,
the one that you have stolen,
as i told you from the start,
be carefull of your pride,
and your arrogance indeed,
for someday i might be,
the one want so not to need.

Need

dear freind i know the feeling,
of being someones hope,
to be the only thing they know,
the one that helps them cope,
i know the way it feels to live your life for someone else,
i know it isnt easy,
and it isn´t hard to tell.
it takes up every moment,
of each hour and every day,
you show them how to make it better
then you hope and pray
you try to heal the heart that will never beat alone,
and you know that you cant leave them to make it on their own,
but your misery consumes you
and you feel like you are caged
and each time you catch your own reflection
you see how much you´ve aged
and then you feel the guilt
because you know you want to leave
but you just cant walk away
and leave their soul to grieve
but please my friend
tread carefully
these words i know are true
you might just end up needing someone
just as yours needs you.

Infamy

infamy
oh infamy
shallow be thy name
thou art unruly jester
in this life of simple fame
infamy
oh infamy
to fly free as a bird
with not a care for this and that
but set free in that word
infamy
oh infamy
and your hedonistic ways
to know these ´simple pleasures´
there is no sum you would not pay
infamy
oh infamy
such destruction in your wake
is there no thought within you
for the promises you break
infamy
oh infamy
when is it you will see
that you are just the infamy
that lies inside of me...

Never to be

a passing glance is all i have
to say that im still here
not heaven above
or hell below me
matters when you´re near
i don´t suppose you´ve noticed
the way i hang on every word
but then again
i understand
it must seem quite absurd
but theres something in the way
that you look at me and smile
that makes me stop to wander
if only for a while
what is it that you´re thinking
when i see you look at me
is it good
is it bad
or could it simply be
you don´t think much at all of me
and a glance is just a glance
but what if i could be with you
what if theres a chance
could i let it pass me by
and never know your heart
could i go back to that one night
could i go back to the start
or would i just be left here
asking myself why
drowning by the moonlight
in the many tears i cry
cant you just release me
and tell me what is true
but i suppose i know already
i will never be with you.

The master of my desires

take thy sweetest form
and in the cool light of the tempest moon
lay waste to my heart
give unto me the burn of your desire
how soothing are the tears that flow
they are your gift to me
they are the thing that only you can give me so purely
without contempt
without fear
without love
fill me with the everlasting
damning desire for your touch
leave nothing in my mind unscathed by your beauty
and torture my soul as only you are able
give me rest and lay me in your arms
behold my weakness
my wanton passions enflamed
exposed
give me your gaze
give me your lips
give me your tongue
give me your hands
and make me feel
cast me not away
but keep me here
etournally yours
by your side
or kneeling at your feet
let me behold the glory of your form
through these enslaved eyes
because chains or none
seemingly free
you are my obsession
and i your possession
i wait here in the silence of my heart
which aches for only one
you, the master of my desires.

For my brother

tonight i´ll say a prayer
for our soldier in the sand
i´ll pray god send an angel
to take him by the hand
to watch him while he´s sleeping
and while the cannons sound
to keep him safe and guard him
from the dangers all around
i´ll ask god to be with him
as he marches proud and tall
and i´ll ask god to remind him
that i love him
most of all
as he walks through the valley
god keep him safe from harm
and this i´ll pray
each single day
´til he returns into our arms.

The tale of broken hearts

my words have lost their meaning
my tune has lost it´s song
i thought you were the one
then i found out
i was wrong
i try to write it down
but the words mean nothing still
and i cannot change my fate
and life will do what it will
there is nothing in the daybreak
but a light across the bay
there is nothing in the meadows
but a lonely bale of hay
the wind that whistled long ago
went still and hushed and died
the waves that broke upon the shore
have dissappeared and dried
the moon still glows at midnight
and the stars still shine above
they are the last remaining
part of what i once called love
the gentle memories i hold
can stike so fierce a blow
they turn my heart a blackened cold
and my pulse begins to slow
so here i am again
right back at the start
or is it just the end
of my tale of broken hearts?

To care

caring is about more than love
caring is not bailing your friend out of jail when they get into trouble
but being right there beside them saying ´damn we f**ked up´
caring isnt worrying all night that your friends are drinking too much then paniking when they do
it´s making sure you´ve got the number for a taxi so you can see them home safe
caring isnt about how much you love someone
it´s the simple fact that you do in the first place, because thats what matters.
caring isnt about giving up your life completely to someone
it´s about sharing it
and finally caring is not stealing the sheets and leaving the bedroom window open
or creeping out before they wake up
caring is tucking them in
being there beside them
leaving the windows closed
but the door to your heart wide open.

Closer still

i cant´ push away the memories
or how they make me feel
nothings quite the same now
it all seems so surreal
looking at you sitting there
my mind begins to reel
i know it all meant nothing
at least,
nothing much to you
and you answer me with silence
when i ask you if thats true
with a look of sheer defiance
that cuts me through and through
you wont say the words
they have yet to pass your lips
but all the while i know
it wont be long before it slips
someday im sure you´ll let me know
and tell me honestly
when the best of me is dead and gone
and you´ve had your fun with me
i never realy had a chance
and would always be second best
well
incase you hadn´t noticed
i have already guessed
it´s okay
i admit it
you know i always knew
but i would do the same a thousand times
just to be close to you.

Dance with me

take my hand
put your arms around me
hold me as the music starts to play
i wont ask you for your love
i wont even dare a kiss
as long as you will tell me that you´ll stay
i dont want to dance alone tonight
this music is a tango made for two
so look into my eyes
and feel whats there inside
because you know this band plays just for me and you
hold me closer
emember the day you found me
and feel the rythm of our gentle sway
tell the music not to stop
my sweetheart please just tell me that you´ll stay
and that you´ll stand beside me
as i take my final bow
i dont know how to dance but i´ll try
just let me dance forever
let me stay here in your arms
tell me anything
just please dont say goodbye.